Its here! Its here! Today I am flying to see my brother and sister – in – law and meet their precious foster kids for the first time. I have been looking forward to this day for months and it is FINALLY HERE! Don’t worry, in my euphoria over meeting their sweet cuties and catching up with family I haven’t forgotten about you, friend! Over the next week you are going to be hearing from some incredible women from a few of my favorite blogs.
Today we have, Chelsea, one of the two sisters from the incredible blogging duo that is More Like Momma …Enjoy!
Childlike Faith – Chelsea
The last time I saw my parents they brought me boxes of forgotten things from my old room on the farm. There were scrapbooks and yearbooks and textbooks from high school and college all crammed into a large cardboard box.
It was sweet and funny to look through so many of the things I had forgotten about, and to see and remember things with new perspective. Some things and people I thought would always be important have faded while others have even more significance now. (Like looking through my college planner and seeing my first date with the Coach written in after small group and Leslie’s birthday party!)
But there were also two old prayer journals amid the stacks, and I sat down the other night and read through them. Seeing the terrible handwriting and run-on sentences makes me laugh. The drama of one entry in particular cracked me up…it starts with “Jesus, I feel horrible right now. Maybe you understand this better than I do.” Come on 17-year-old self… maybe?!
While it’s funny to peek into my past, it is also very sobering. There are scribbled prayers asking for direction and guidance and wisdom. Asking that my heart be sensitive to God’s word and that he would make and shape and mold me into the woman he wants me to be. There are so many wordy prayers poured out in the pages hungrily asking for more of Jesus. Even though the way I expressed myself seems immature now, the sincerity and desire was there – I wish I had the trust and child-like faith I had then.
“Unless you humble yourself and become like a little child, you shall not enter the Kingdom of Heaven.” (Matthew 18:3-4)
From my high school days looking forward I thought that by the time I am where I am today I would have life figured out. I thought that by the time I graduated college, God’s purpose and calling for my life would be clear to me. I thought by the time I got married I would be mature and just know things by instinct… like how long to cook a turkey and how to fold fitted sheets. I thought I would somehow magically change into a morning person and be excited to wake up every morning at 6am to have a rock-solid alone time with God.
Isn’t it funny that we think some time in the future everything will change and be wonderfully sprinkled with fairy dust? Reading through my old prayers made me realize that the times I was the most uncertain of something were the times I had the most faith and trust in God. When I was deciding on colleges or was struggling in a friendship I sought him. When I was lonely and longing to meet my future husband, I turned to him. I asked for his guidance on even the littlest things, because I trusted him.
Jesus loves me this I know – not because he does just what I would like, but because the Bible tells me so. It is The Truth, and Calvary proves it. I don’t need to know what is going to happen in my future or have a clear plan; I need to trust Him with an undivided, undistracted heart. Like Tim Tebow says, “I don’t know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future.”
Psalm 91 reminds us that no matter what befalls us, those who trust in the Lord will be delivered. It’s not complicated! Lord, give me the simple faith of a child!
Chelsea loves spending time with her husband, “The Coach”, cooking, reading and painting. She is passionate about crossing things off her to-do list and dancing in the kitchen. Her momma is a big source of inspiration as she learns to live out God’s calling on her life. You can read more about her journey at More Like Momma