Well we survived a crazy weekend of travel (best part of any road trip – Bucees!!!)
which ended with a bout of explosive diaherrea for C in the car… I just kept telling myself “this will be funny someday”READ MORE
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I had broken our family “Christmas code” and begun blasting the Christmas music in the van with the boys several weeks before Thanksgiving. I justified my actions because we had some early snow flurries and mostly because the creator and the only one who cared about the “Christmas code” (i.e.no decorations or Christmas music before Thanksgiving was my handsome, rule following…”you should never eat any food past the expiration date” husband) I love him so much but we couldn’t be more different.
Well…I gave in…its over…I’m blasting Christmas music…stirring my hot cocoa with candy canes and dreaming about making this Christmas a special time with my kiddos….I blame the highly unusual for Texas, snow flurries this morning… but I can’t stop…won’t stop…I mean even my hubby who is a staunch “not a note of Christmas music or tinsel dropped in this house until the last of the cranberries been licked from the plates” guy…told me a few days ago he was fine with me decorating for Christmas early…and that my friends is even crazier than snow flurries in Texas in mid November…READ MORE
This weekend we have family pictures as I was getting our outfits together today. I realized a few things.
1. I am a total nerd and really like planning out outfits for our annual family pics. This morning I realized why this was, as I bit my lip to restrain myself from saying, “you don’t match, go and change” to my 4 year old whose favorite shirt happens to be a threadbare neon tie dye tee-shirt which he emphatically explains to me DOES match his brightly colored plaid shorts because… “look mom they both have all the colors!!!” It’s in these moments when I glance down at my own glamorous ensemble of yoga pants & baggy tee-shirt covered in… whatever round of projectile bodily fluid roulette I lost that morning… READ MORE
Well… it happened, my first child gave up their nap… I went through all the stages of grief… denial, anger, sadness… the sting of what I’ve lost still feels painful everyday around 1 pm. Fortunately I have these amazing Mommas I know who are a few years ahead of me in their Momma roles that I frequently send SOS texts too… such as “my potty training isn’t going so well… because my “trainee” keeps throwing the Elmo potty at my head! HELP!!!!” READ MORE
Can I be honest, I didn’t really want to write this post… mostly because it is hard to remember something you would rather forget, like my struggle with Post partum Depression and Anxiety. But I am writing it because I read yesterday that another precious Momma has ended her life because of PPD. And it truly breaks my heart. I am writing, because my prayer is for one person to read this and know they are not alone, and find the courage and strength to tell someone they need help and to keep telling someone they need help until you get the help you need.
Photo Cred: Tabby Z Photography
Happy Wednesday!!!!! I missed connecting with y’all last week. I was “out of the office” and by Out I mean at my house with seven kids, seven and under. Six of them being boys. My brother and sis in law and their crew came to visit from out of state. It was such a treat to have them here and have them meet baby Zeke! I also have a new nephew that I hadn’t met yet – so it was a crazy, beautiful and loud time. But honestly there I wouldn’t have had it any other way!!! I miss them so so much already. I’ll be sharing some pics of our time together, mostly on Instagram, if we aren’t connected their yet would love to have you, you can find me HERE at @claritywithcharity.READ MORE
Hey! Hey! Its Back to School Time. Please tell me its not just me?…. Every year around this time I want to buy myself new pencils, markers, crayons…and maybe a Trapper Keeper… Calling all the children of the 90’s….Anyone else have one of those? Mine was Lisa Frank and it was AWESOME…nothing was cooler in 1991 than Lisa Frank…NOTHING!!!!!!! Fortunately I now have kids and so its looks a little less weird for me to be frolicking through the crayon aisle at Target…We definitely bought some new markers, crayons and paint for our home art supplies this weekend. My kiddos started pre-school for the first time this summer…and although they supply all the school supplies there….bummer…I did get to shop for their back packs and lunch boxes and they aren’t old enough yet to argue with my choice too much.
“But will I ever feel like myself again?,” she asked me.
Her question startled me, and there I was holding the phone as my brother told me my Dad was dead. I was grasping my belly, blood in the toilet weeping over my baby, gone….I was in the ER, with a solemn sonographer looking for a heart beat. I was on the phone with 911, beside my friend who was turning blue experiencing a heart attack.
Her question to me following her own personal loss…it had been my anthem for days, weeks, maybe even years following death, grief, loss… “I just want to feel like myself again” I would think, “I want to laugh without feeling the laughter cut pre-maturely remembering who wasn’t there to laugh with me. I just wanted to laugh, freely…without looking over my shoulder, frantically scanning my surroundings wondering when the next tragedy or crises would come. I wanted to go to sleep at night without fear…fear that one of my children would die in the night, fear that something would happen to my husband while he was driving. I wanted to feel carefree and full of wonder and hope at what may be next instead of dreading each new day.
Photo Cred: Tabby Z Photography
Recently I have been asked for some of my must have baby items… I guess having 3 kids makes me a parenting expert now…ya right, I’m just trying to survive until nap time by sneaking bites of my kids piñata candy from the last 3 birthday parties they attended – p.s. Dear parents, piñata candy is lame…please buy small sized reeses and hersheys and maybe throw in a few Lindor truffles next time for the mommas who need a little pick me up.
In the spirit of making Mommas lives a little better I want to share with you my 10 most loved baby items.